I'm sort of a day-to-day girl, so I have never really thought of things that I would want to do before I kick the bucket. I mean there are the normal things, like be a good person, raise AJ to be the best she can be, stuff like that. And yes, that is all important, to me more important than menial things like travel and shopping. But in the scheme of things, I think I'm doing a pretty good job with myself and AJ.....we're still works in progress, but we're turning out okay. So when Greta told us about a challenge on the new site Forward Progress, I gave it some thought. After I did this exercise and put it down on paper, it seems as if I pretty much just want to travel. I guess when you look into your "wants", you just need to take what comes out. Even though there are a LOT of things I would like to do, these five kept coming back to me, so I figure they must need be on the top of my list.
I don't talk about it ever, but I am not the healthiest person. I mean I started January 2008 in the hospital having brain surgery. My brain is now fine, but I have other health issues going on. Things that need attention. Issues such as breathing. I am currently on oxygen full time. At 33. It sucks. It makes you realize that NONE of us are guaranteed tomorrow. That things that should come so easily (like breathing) can be one of the most difficult things to do. A small task such as folding the laundry turns into a marathon. It makes you realize that yes, life is precious, and it is okay to focus on frivolous things every now and again. Like going to NYC and shopping all day.
Being sick has really brought me down. I'm not the happy jovial person I once was. I WANT to be that person again. I have promised myself that I am going to strive to be that person again.
So see, making a "bucket list" isn't the negative thing I thought it was. For me, it actually gave me some motivation to keep on keeping on....to do some of these things on my list. To not focus so much on my condition, but my life and the gift that it is.
So what's on my list?
I want to :
- Watch my baby girl marry the man of her dreams
- go shopping in NYC and take in a Broadway show
- Live in a new and different city
- Visit Northern Italy where Web lived and let him be my tour guide
- Tour all of the Napa Valley Wineries